'I can't connect with my daughter'
The birth of a child is usually a joyous moment but not for this mother.
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When speaking with this mother, she mentioned that she struggles to connect with and love her daughter.

Her daughter is now seven years old and it's not getting any better. I spoke to her to find out what's really happening. 

How did it all start?

"When I was pregnant with my daughter I went through so much pain and rejection with her father. He abandoned me as soon as I told him that I was pregnant and I became a single mother and he has not come to see the child ever since she was born. I did not enjoy my pregnancy at all. Her father actually told me to abort her but I refused. He has also questioned paternity of the child."

Can you explain the non-existent connection between you and your daughter?

"When my daughter was born I thought I had post-natal depression that would go away, I had no loving feelings towards her. She was and is just there but do not feel affectionate towards her. I have even wondered whether post-natal depression can take this long as I want to love her but I cannot get myself to love her."

What really happens that makes you worry about your daughter?

"Since she was born I have only hugged her once and even when she asks for a hug I make an excuse. I once beat her black and blue as she was naughty and I now realise that I went overboard. I let her cry her lungs out and felt no need to soothe her. My mother once took her as she noticed that I was not a loving mother and during that time I was admitted to a mental hospital after being diagnosed with severe mental post-natal depression but she brought the child back to me. I have another child now and I am more loving towards my son than with my daughter. I am aware of my actions and need help in loving my daughter. Hence I am talking about it."

Tell me about your daughter

"She wants and asks for my love and she is a loving child but she is also an angry child. I am worried that I might have turned her into a bully. She is rough with other kids when playing and I know that I have contributed towards her behaviour. She is really rough with other kids and for her age I know she should not be like that. She once asked me why I do not have her pictures on my cellphone and computer like her brother and I always make up a story but nothing makes me want to have her pictures with me. I fear that she will resent or even hate me when she is older. I need help. I do want to love her.  I want to make things right and maybe someone out there can help me, it has been seven years and I do not want this to continue forever. I do not want to raise an angry child that has been rejected by both her mother and father."

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