"I was scared of facing my family"
Nikki Birk tells us how she thought she met the "perfect man", but was sadly disappointed and had to go through her pregnancy on her own.
I was working overseas, where I met "the perfect man", and we wanted to get married and start a life together. I fell pregnant, and sadly we broke up. I continued working overseas, as I was scared of facing my family. I returned home to Cape Town on the 30th January 2010.
I carried very small, so nobody knew I was pregnant when I was back home, they just thought that I had put on a little weight. I went for a 4-D scan at 36 weeks, and was told that I was going to have a healthy little boy!He was due on the 3rd of March, but the 3rd of March came and went!
On the 8th of March at 2am, my water broke. I still did not tell anyone. My mother and I went shopping and we ate out that evening. When we got home, my contractions really started, so I ran a bath, and stayed in there most of the night.On the 10th of March, at 9am, I told my mother. She was in such shock, but managed to drive me to Cape Gate Medi Clinic, where they had just opened and were very unprepared.
They called in a gynae from Durbanville, he said that I am 8cm dilated, no time for an epidural, straight to the delivery room, and my perfect little 3.4 kg boy was born at 9:45am!
My mother and father were both by my side during the (very short!) delivery, and my little boy Blake, is the love of their lives today! My father is still so proud to be the first one to hold him, and to have been the one to cut his umbilical cord.
I do not know or understand my reasons for being so scared to tell them. I have the most loving, amazing parents any person could ask for and I know that they will stand by me no matter what I do.
While his father is still not in the picture, nor does he want to be, I will raise my son to the best of my ability, and I will give him all that I possibly can.
A child is a gift, it is not a burden. We should cherish our children, they truly are little miracles!
This is my story :) and I would not have it any other way! The minute I saw my little boys face, I knew what it is to love somebody unconditionally.