I'm a traumatised foetus
Marlon Abrahams finds out why he’s always so depressed when Christmas time comes around.
I thought I would share my new found appreciation of Christmas with you in the hope that it might spark similar awakenings among some of you. I have had a ‘condition’ that I’ve been suffering from for almost four decades.
Every year, around Christmas time, I would go into an inexplicable depression of sorts. Most years I would be able to ignore the depression and distract myself with the the events that Christmas brings with it every year. However, on the odd occasion when I would spend Christmas on my own, or alone with a significant other, I’d literally spend the Christmas day alone in my room with a good book.
The very next day I would snap out of the depression just as quickly and easily as it had occurred, much to the anger and confusion of the significant others.
I think I’ve actually ended more than one relationship on Christmas Day over the years and when I think back on it, I honestly don’t think there was ever a valid reason.
A few years ago, when my mom told me about her pregnancy with me, I discovered the reason for the festive depression. I was born four days after Christmas and when my mother was carrying me, she had to endure an extremely traumatic domestic situation with my dad just before I was born.
It really was an intensely stressful time for her and clearly that stress and trauma found its way through the placenta and into my psyche. I’ve since read up about the phenomenon and it’s well-documented that the foetus reacts to its surrounds while forming in the womb.
Thankfully, since I realised the cause of my depression, it has been really easy for me to beat it and rise above it. The last few Christmases have been fun and joyous as I guess it should be and I’m really looking forward to this one too!
I thought I would share this in case it sparked something among any of you who find yourselves with inexplicable mood swings around certain times of the year.
It could well be that something that happened while you were under construction…
Have an awesome Christmas and a safe holiday season.
Do you think a traumatic foetus experience can affect you as an adult?